Why
babies are out for me... Toyah has no doubts
about what would happen if she met her former
live in lover Tom Taylor again.
"He'd
punch my face in - I'm sure of it," said the
pop superstar.
For, even
18 months after she split up with the man who
shared six years of her life, it's obvious the
wounds have not yet healed.
When Toyah
fled to New York, she grew close to top rock
guitarist Robert Fripp, and they were later
married in a secret ceremony.
But
although a broken-hearted Tom bitterly attacked
her in a series of newspaper articles, Toyah
holds no grudges.
DIFFICULT
"I
expected that to happen - and I actually respect
the fact that Tom didn't say anything nearly as
harmful as he could have," she said.
"I was
difficult to live with, I work so much, have such
a fiery temper and also need to be alone a lot of
the time.
"I was
to blame in that I was very, very strong and this
man was living in my shadow. Nobody should have
to do that."
And she
went on: "I'd told him early in 1985 that I
was going to go and live on my own, but he didn't
want me to.
"He
wouldn't give me the space I needed - there was
too much possessiveness.
"I
feel no grudge towards Tom atall. I haven't seen
him since - I couldn't. It's not right and it
would be too painful."
STRENGTH
And Toyah
was also at pains to put the record straight that
their relationship was well and truly over BEFORE
her romance with Fripp blossomed.
"Despite
what some people have said, Robert had nothing to
do with the split - that happened months before I
met him," Toyah told me.
"He
shouldn't have been involved in the cross-over.
But Robert was a phenomenal strength to me, even
though he didn't involve himself in the politics
of it all."
She also
revealed that they had made an incredible
"no children" pact when they decided to
get married.
"We've
decided that we don't want kids. We didn't have
the 'Blessing for the children' vows included in
our wedding ceremony," said Toyah.
"I
have absolutely no instincts within me to have a
baby. I don't think you should have a child
unless you're prepared to devote 15 years of your
own life to having that personality
created."
SUPPORT
Toyah went
on: "I need to be alone so much that I
couldn't bear to have someone dependent on me.
I'd never have a child and have a nanny look
after it - YOU should be there to watch it grow
and support it, and I don't think I could.
"Robert
feels exactly the same, and we don't feel
connected to the social thing where you HAVE to
have children."
And their
marriage is run along unconventional lines.
Due to
their busy work schedules, Toyah and Robert can
be together only at weekends. Her work dictates
that she spends most of her time in London, while
he records in deepest Dorset.
NORMAL
"We
have this agreement that, wherever we are in the
world, we ALWAYS see each other at
weekends," Toyah said.
"On
weekdays we're on the phone at least four times a
day - you should see our bills.
"I
miss him so much, but when we do see each other
it's wonderful. I hate being away from him - he's
my best friend and there's no-one else I'd rather
be with.
"Of
course, I have a community of girlfriends that I
like to spend some time with, but I run to Robert
whenever I can.
"We go
to the cinema, go driving or sight-seeing, and
it's great.
"We
lead a very normal, everyday life. I couldn't ask
for much more."
Daily
Record, 1987
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